Well it's day 3 ,
Have decided to go back to work and stop moping about the house , Might as well get paid for doing it and can keep 2 days bereavement leave for the funeral , so have a week and a half to make my mind up .
Tomorrows work is up a Column 282ft high , Will work down in 10hr shifts ,7 days a week  for a year until finished if possible I will post pictures .
Better day today so let's see .

2nd day of Blog !
Ran for an hour this morning just to clear my head , Then called in to see my Aunt ,Stayed for an hour and then the subject of mother's death came up ! She said "You will regret not going " I did not want to argue with her about this so told her my reasons and made my excuses and left .
Sunday always a  boring day as you are just waiting to go back to work ! So went for another run and decided that I will go back on Tuesday and keep 2 days for Funeral .
If she gave me nothing in life at least she get's me a week of for her death !

Well folks this is my first blog , I should really be getting counselling but will try this instead , It's been a strange week .
My brother text me on Wednesday to tell me that our Mother had died !, I had been expecting it has she had a Heart Attack last Thursday week and has been Quite ill for months , Had been called to her bedside but had decided that I did not want to go !.
She has been out of my life now for over half of it , She left my father and that was that , In all this time no Birthday Card , No Christmas Card , Nothing ! Just 3 phone calls asking for money !.
She did not want to meet ,Just Money which she said I should give to my Gran , So sent money and that was that, After that Nothing .
So have taken a few days off to get my head together and still don't know where I am with this , Shall I go to the Funeral or not ,Shall I contact any of my Siblings or not !
Well I don't know ! So God Knows !
That will do for now !